hmm....

i seriously dont know how should i describe my life now?? i feel like i am a body without a soul.... i dont know what i am i suppose to do....just to get a degree 1.5 years later?? i just follow orders now~~~ i dont know how to say NO ....or what should i do to say NO.... im getting sick of life i guess....ill just do whatever you want me to do.... or maybe im tired of fighting for FREEDOM... its reli tiring.... so just let it be....i dont know what more you want...whatever u want from me just say it... but not happiness.. because me myself cant do it and dont have it....so how am i suppose to give it to you?? ill just do whatever you want but not expressing myself happily.... i totally lost my happiness....hmm....where should i find it back??? =/

这首歌唱出我的心声.....

倒数

怎麼我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
车里的歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默 你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麼处处在意我
越害怕伤害我 我感觉越难受
你不懂 我没你想像脆弱

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 已确定不是我

下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我 真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著 越加速疏远了
别触碰 我在逞强的笑容

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 已确定不是我

是不是从前我们太懒惰
放任心往相反方向移动 直到看不清楚
你说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪忽然夺眶而出 快要不能自己
难 很困难 再见要说的多快乐

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记 我们都爱过
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 我确定不是我
选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的

我的心声.....我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我......

I really have no comments...

I reli dont know what u really want....

I feel that u r treating me like an idiot...

U can just upfront to me.... what do u want??

If u decided to give up on me...just fuckin tell me on my face....

i hope my prediction is also wrong...

But from what i see n what u gave me...

i really do feel so......

I feel tht u wanna go bck to whr u belong but u dun wanna tell it straight on my face....

So Just fuckin continue leave me ALONE...

Dun come on n off...

U make me feel on n off all d time as well...

ON= U care about me but u are bz, thats why u seldom meet up with me....U're damn fuckin bz...

OFF=No....u dun give a fuck abt me...=.= i didnt see u for ages but u dun wanna time for me...not even an hour....because u rather stay home n be with ur family..

I dun wan my life to be so pathetic....its annoying...so please let me go if u dun wan this to continue....=/

My 21st Bday

thanks to all my frenz who've attended my bday celebration ystdy....i reli did had a great time...Love u guys so much<3<3....u guys make my day perfectly wonderful =)

some of them did accompany me during my hard times as well...i know i cant say anything but only thank you...

Im very disappointed with some1 tht night...he is the 1 shud be arriving but he did not...but at least u guys supported me....so i feel great....

Thanks Guys ^^

Busy Dizzy~~~

Been pretty bz lately...LOL

i think is the best way to not think about u so much...

Very tired...which is good...

so i can sleep n shut my brain...

im too tired which will nt make me start thinking abt nonsense...LOL

although i dont see u quite often...but i think that will be enough for me.... =)

i dont wanna disturb u while u r bz as well...

but i reli hope i can see u on my bday party in my place....

hope u can make it....=/

i jz need 2 hrs from u....

Saturday went shooting with vince...^^

the pictures r totally AWESOME~~~ LOL

i like the way he work n the results after he work....

finally im tired............

i try to make myself as bz as possible sometimes....

so that i wont start think of u too much when i have nothing to do...

finally i felt tired today....

i still think of u n miss u but not so much like times before this~~~

i would wanna thank all my friendss who had accompanied me for these times...

i knw i cant be alone....cuz whn i am alone ill start thinkin of u....n hope tht i can see u all d time....

but i dun wanna disturb u while ure bz as well....

i knw hw bz u r sometimes....

i must trust u n trust myself....i need more confidence.....

well mayb it just need some time...=)

nitezz ppl....im reli tired nw...

tired@@

ASSIGNMENTS~~~~

MID TERM~~~

URGHH~~~~~

i reli need a break......i need to rest =/

ive been so tired ntil i dun evn get to see u...

aihzz.....but i miss u all d time...

WHY??

i soooooooooo wanted to see u~~~ i knw ure bz too...=.=